My perspective on life changes ever so slowly. As each month progresses since I’ve been here, I’ve noticed that this place has already changed me quite a bit.
I know for a fact that I’m not as audacious, I’ve lost a little bit of weight, and I’m still praying for God to open and close doors in my life as He deems necessary.
My personality is changing as well. Let me share a little story that can set the stage for what I’m about to say.
During my time in the Air Force, I did what they call “one man banding” news stories. This meant that I shot, wrote, edited, voiced and packaged each news story I was assigned. You could hear and see my work, but you couldn’t see me on screen. Because I rarely did any stand-ups, I was always known as “the mysterious man behind the camera” by fellow co-workers and other Air Force broadcasters out in the field. I made things happen but I was never seen doing it. I was never in the limelight, yet people knew it was me that put the story together.
That’s kinda the way my personality is starting to shift. It’s weird for everyone who has known me for years, because if you’ve known me for any length of time, you know I like to steal the show and do something crazy. That’s the way I have been as long as anyone has known me. Class clown, court jester, whatever you want to call it.
I do know that there has been a benefit to my life slowing down a bit since I’ve been here. It’s forced me to reevaluate myself and see just exactly who I want to be, the type of people I would mesh well with, and what I can do to benefit others and myself in turn. It’s forced me to be a bit more serious around everyone.
I thought about it long and hard the other day, and I figured it’s not all that bad to step out of the limelight and be known as “the man behind the camera” figuratively speaking, when it comes to friendships, forming relationships, etc. Remember my previous posts about everyone having a story? Remember how I said I’ve spoken for far too long and it’s time for me to shut up and listen to everyone? That’s exactly how I feel. I want other people to be able to tell their stories, and I want to play an integral behind the scenes role in helping people out with their lives.
As my life continues to progress and I continue to make tremendous strides forward spiritually, mentally and emotionally, things will continue falling into place and God truly will open and close those doors as He sees fit.
For all I know, it could be Him telling me to take a big step back out of the limelight anyway.
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