Some of you may wonder why I haven’t been feeling super-spiritual over the last few weeks.
As my faith in Jesus Christ continues to grow, I find myself growing more and more unhappy with organized religion. Organized as in, go to church, follow a set routine, sing a few songs, listen to someone speak some good words, pray at the altar, get a good cry so it feels like you’re feeling better when you’re done, hug some friends, and walk back out the door. Like robots, we all repeat the same process on a weekly basis.
And I wonder why we all go home in the same sorry spiritual state in which we arrived at church.
I’m questioning normal Christianity. So much of it seems so routine. I’m bored with it. I’m sick of it. It does nothing for me spiritually. It sickens me to the core to think that I am a robot in an Army of God that is full of individuals that continue to bang their heads against a wall called complacency.
Complacency that causes us to conduct ourselves in a manner completely opposite to what Paul described in Romans chapter 12. We proclaim the name of Jesus within the church walls and defile his name by actions unbecoming of a child of Him, outside of the four walls of the sanctuary. We praise His name when all our Christian friends are around, but we can’t mention Jesus when socializing with nonbelievers.
I seek God for answers to the questions that haunt me. There HAS to be something better, a higher calling, some point where God finally imparts wisdom to me and shows me the place where I need to be with Him.
I’m tired of “church.” I’m tired of conventional Christianity. I want, I need, I desire something more than what everyone else is content to settle for.
And I’m not gonna stop hounding God until I get it.
welcoome to the “Hunger” the desire that christ puts deep down in your spirit to bring you up to a new level with him. Delmar gillette has a book called forever ruined for the ordinary, if you like I can let you borrow my copy.
I totally see where you are coming from. I think that way to often people just want the fire insurance so they go through the so-called-christian motions….church on sunday, lil bit of prayin, stick your hands up in the air, show up for group on Wednesday and be done with it. The rest of the time they kind of make up their own rules as they go and still say they are a hard core christian. I think that too often people use the organization, church, as a crutch from dealing with what it really takes to be a true christian.