The World According To Chris Brewer

I’ve been thinking. Sometimes I think too much, but this is something that really requires some time and attention.

Tonight I had a couple people who are close friends of mine call me out on a personality trait of mine I honestly wish I could get rid of. Sometimes I tend to focus a little too much on myself. I don’t know why it takes people conking me over the head with the proverbial two-by-four for me to realize I’m screwing up, and it sucks.

To everyone that I’m effectively pushing away, I’m sorry. I realize that I need to be friends with people to be real with them and show them I genuinely care about them. Deep down inside, I do care, and I haven’t shown it. So my credibility in that department is shot. All I can do is ask for another chance and for everyone to work with me as I ask God for help, and as I work on establishing effective friendships and relationships with people. I’ve become a pro at burning bridges and I don’t want to burn any more…in fact I want to rebuild all of them and build some new ones.

I know the most important thing I have to do. Life tends to fall apart when we put God on the back burner and concentrate more on what we want. My life is not exactly going too great right now and I know it’s because I haven’t put God #1. My credibility is tanking, my friendships are nothing more than “Hey, what’s up?” and I plain don’t enjoy life, work, church, anything at all right now. It’s all because I’ve failed to put God as the sole most important priority in life. Once I start to put Jesus first, everything else is gonna fall into place.

There is no better time to start than right now.

And to those who saw an earlier blog entry that has since been deleted, I apologize for even posting it. No excuses from this man.