So now it’s been one week since I went to visit Stephanie in Indianapolis. You’d think after a few days I would feel better about what happened over the weekend…I do somewhat, but I get this prevailing sick feeling inside. Seriously.
I know what I did this weekend was wrong and there is no way I can undo that. But I have this terrible feeling, the same kind of feeling you would get if you killed your best friend out of the blue and later realized how terrible of a thing you had done, and you wonder how you could have done it.
I know God’s helping me along, but I still need all the prayer and help I can get. My friend Erin last night put it perfectly: “You can’t effectively minister to others unless you have some bad things happen to you.” And believe me, I want to effectively minister to my friends and reach out to those in need.
The next few days will continue to be those of recovery and reflection.
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