Monthly Archive for April, 2005

Website Outage Update - 10:30 AM

Here’s what’s going on with the website. Keep trying to check the stuff out, and leave a comment on if you can connect or not.

  • The main portion of the website is still down. Both http://network.firestormlive.net and http://www.firestormlive.net/network are down, and have been since I checked it at 7:48 this morning.
  • The MediaCenter came back up around 9:10. You can still access the photos, video, and audio clips there at our alternate site, http://gallery.firestormlive.net.
  • I’m still wondering how to get FirestormRadio back up. Since it’s integrated into the main part of the site, we’re probably going to have to wait until the Network comes back up to even touch that.
  • Anything else that anyone on here can find, please let me know and post it as a comment. Thanks.

I’m gonna work all evening tonight on getting the site back up. Thanks for the patience.

Kill Your Television (But Keep ESPN)

Recently I have watched no television except for sports-related activities and National Geographic specials. The junk that TV has to offer (yes, it is junk for the most part) has nothing for me whatsoever…..I don’t need to take that crap in and spew it out every day. This led me recently to read a speech by a man named Newton Minnow to the National Association of Broadcasters in 1961. Funny thing, on a forum I visit called Jude 2, someone posted this very speech.

Here is the edited version of the speech……happy reading. It is VERY long.

Spring Retreat, eBay, and FirestormRadio

Sorry I haven’t made any attempt to even show face on my website over the past few days. I’ve been pretty busy with Spring Retreat, which was pretty decent, and trying to get some sleep to make up for it.

So let’s run down over what happened over the past few days…

  • Thursday, April 21: I launched a beta version of FirestormRadio on my website. If you’re intrigued or interested in hearing the top five songs I listen to each week, check it out and lemme know what you think.
  • Friday, April 22 - Sunday, April 24: I ran off to Spring Retreat with a bunch of friends from Lakeside Church. Spring Retreat is one of the Virginia Church of God of Prophecy’s youth camps….there were about 150 people there. Amazing when you consider that I grew up in the Washington State COGOP, and the biggest crowd I ever saw at a camp there was 120…I think it was back in the summer of 2000. I know I’m kinda biased but it seemed like Washington had more to offer in the way of activities, but the church services were the same all around. Good word, good prayer, good move of the Spirit. There was a group there called Mission Virginia (from the Lynchburg, VA Church of God)…they did some cool skits and had a couple people preach some powerful, timely messages I personally won’t soon forget. Overall, it was a decent camp with not much in the way of activities, but it more than made up for that with the great people there, good teaching, and move of the Holy Spirit.
  • Monday, April 25: Went back to work and found out I will make $712.35 on this current paycheck. I need more money (don’t we all?). I also bid on eBay for a Apple iBook G4 laptop and was severely outbid 30 minutes before it all ended. Crap.

Anyway, that’s it for now….be peacein’ out and I will be talkin’ at you later.

Song of the Day

Just wanted to share the song of the day with you all. It’s called “I Like Love (I Love Love)” by Solitaire (Lewis Dene’s DJ name). It effectively uses a vocal hook by Norma Jean Wright…I think she was formerly part of the group Chic in the 70s. Interesting track, here are the lyrics. Really simple song.


I feel real good this evening,
And I like to say I feel real good for one reason,
That we’re all here together,
Why don’t you give yourselves a great big round of applause,
You’re beautiful,
Beautiful,

I prepared a very special song for you,
A song that I sat down and wrote,
Because I felt it was nessecary to sing it here,
And I hope you’ll like it.

(Chorus)

I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love
I like love
I like love

baahaa!
baahaa!
baahaa!
baahaa!
baahaa!
(Repeat Chorus)

I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love
I like love
I like love

(Verse 2)

Let everybody say right on
(Crowd) Right On
And I like to say I appreciate the way you’ve been acting
Why don’t you give yourselves a great big round of applause
I like, in fact I love what you’re doing to me

I prepared a very special song for you
A song that I sat down and wrote
Because I felt it was nessecary to sing it here
And I hope you’ll like it

I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love wooah
I love love oooh
I like love
I like love
I like love

Neat stuff. Click the link below to hear a sample.

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Currently Listening To: “I Like Love (I Love Love),” Solitaire. I Like Love - CD Single (2004).

A British TV Ad, T-Shirt, and Not Much Else

As Stephanie can bear witness to, I’m feeling pretty crazy tonight. Which is why I wanted to take the time to present the Volkswagen UK ad for the new Golf GTI. Enjoy…..click the little Play button to see it, don’t click it if you don’t want to see it.

Vendors in Washington, D.C. line streets in hopes someone will buy their odd wares, cheap trinkets and T-shirts. I must admit I almost bought this one, two blocks down from the White House on Alexander Hamilton Way.



***RANT WARNING***
I for one am tired of seeing ungrateful people from other countries infiltrate the United States in hopes of getting off cheap. Kudos to those who immigrate to America to work. Shame on all those who immigrate up here, especially lazy Texicans who want everything all over the U.S. translated for them. It’s America. Learn English. You would expect me to learn Spanish if I went to Mexico, or French if I went to France….or even moved there, much less.

Grrrr. Another example of our nation bending over to make everyone happy….it’s only gonna kill us in the end.

***END OF RANT***

It’s LATE. Night.

A Visit to Cold Stone

Our youth group took a trip to Cold Stone tonight (if you don’t know what that is, it’s an ice cream place), and I saw a sign normally seen in many restaurants:


Nuts are used in many of our products. Please take caution if you are allergic to nuts.

To which I replied:


I am allergic to nuts. Everytime I bend over forward, I sneeze.

Har har har. ‘Tis the quote of the day.

Another Dream from the Lord


Lord, I’m available to You!
My will I give to You!
I’ll do what you say do…Use me, Lord,
To show someone the way.
And enable me to say,
“My storage is empty, and I am
Available to You.”

–”I’m Available,” Author Unknown

The above song is one of two that the Lord gave me in another dream from Him last night. It’s kinda weird, up until last year I could not remember any of my dreams in specific detail, but since last July I have had about 8 dreams that I can remember completely…..where I was, who I was with, what everything looked like, etc. The Lord has to be telling me something, I just don’t know what it is.

Here is a synopsis of last night’s dream…

I was sitting in a church that had been burned, nobody knew what from. Fire investigators and police were baffled, because there was no human evidence of arson, accidental fire, etc…nada. On the inside, it looked like my home church, but on the outside, there was just wheat fields as far as the eye could see. No roads, no irrigation ditches, no hoses, nothing. Just the church in the middle of nowhere.

Anyway, the church was blackened inside but not destroyed. The walls were charred, the curtains were burned off, the piano was charred wood but still playable, and the pulpit was the only thing intact in the entire place. I noted that everything had just been blackened and was still usable to some extent.

Time jumped forward a week and I returned to the church (don’t ask me how, dreams are weird like that) to see stuff actually destroyed by fire. The back wing of the church was gone, pews were reduced to ash, the piano was gone. Windows were melted out of their frames. Again, fire investigators could not find any evidence of any human cause of the fire. And also again, the pulpit was perfectly intact.

Suddenly I go outside and I see a sign that looked like it had been tossed in the grass. It too, was burned, and the only thing I could read off it was “ing Service, 10:3″. I took this to mean “Morning Service, 10:30.” I looked at my watch, and it was 10:24 AM on Sunday. Just as I looked up, my old pastor, Pastor Pat Dillon, came walking along toward the church. Was he still holding church in a burned-out building?

I tried calling out to him but he didn’t hear me. He walked inside the church, but I noted even though the church was burned halfway to the ground, he looked in good spirits. Exceptionally good spirits. So I followed him. This is where it gets good….he walked right up to the pulpit and began to sing. Nobody was there, ash piles are sitting where the pews, piano and heater stood, and here is Pastor Dillon singing praise choruses, one after another. Two of them were Blue Book songs, “Meeting in the Air” and “Living by Faith.” Then I was stunned to hear what he sang next.

He belted out “Lord, I’m Available to You” loud, proud and with fervor. He kept on motioning as if he was directing people in an imaginary audience to sing, and sing loud. It would have even got me to sing, jump and shout, even during a slower song like that. It was that good, you could feel the anointing of the Holy Ghost.

After he was done with that, I raised my hand as if to voice a prayer request. He looked right through me and began to preach. It was then I realized that I was not actually in my own dream, I was observing it from the outside, but was still there, if that makes any sense (like Scrooge in A Christmas Carol, visited by the Spirits of Christmas Past, Present and Yet to Come).

Pastor Dillon preached a message entitled “There is a Call….Who Will Respond?” In the sermon he motioned outside toward the wheat fields and stretched his hand out each direction. It sent chills up and down my spine to hear him point each direction and say “In the name of Jesus, I proclaim to the South, give up the harvest!!!” He said it to the North, East and West as well. What it meant, I had no clue, but you could feel the unction of the Spirit in it.

He then quoted the Bible three times, saying “The harvest is great, but we have no laborers!” He then pointed to the pews and said something that shocked me, “Our pews are burned, our place of comfort has been burned down by the Lord! He is telling us to get out of our comfort zone and minister in the community! No more will we sit here and ask for the Lord to bring us people and not do a thing about it! No more will we stand silent! No more will we preach doctrine instead of giving them the Word!”

The sermon ended on that note, and he gave an altar call. I thought it was maniacal because there was no one there, but he was placing his hand on the altar and praying for it, just as if there were someone there. He kept moving back and forth and doing this for about twenty minutes, praying that the Lord would “enable him (or her) to go out in power, go in faith, go with the Spirit of the Lord and compel them to come.” (Yes, I remember this word for word.)

Then after altar call was over, Pastor Dillon said the following: “I want to sing another song in closing, and this one is directed specifically for one person who needs to hear it. He is not here with us right now as he has moved elsewhere, but he continues to be in our thoughts and prayers, and O God, I just pray right now you enable him, open his ears, eyes and spirit to hear the words You have given me to sing.”

Then he sang the most powerful rendition of “Jesus Loves Me” I have heard yet in a dream. He sang it just like this, over and over, and wept while he sang:

Jesus loves you, this you know.
For the Bible tells you so.
Yes, Chris, you to Him belong.
You are weak, but your God is strong.

Yes, Jesus loves you,
Yes, Jesus loves you,
Yes, Jesus loves you,
The Bible tells you so.

Jesus died for your lost soul,
Jesus died to make you whole,
Ask him now for help along,
You are weak but your God is strong.

Jesus did not leave you behind,
You are always on His mind.
Talk to Him all the day long,
You are weak, but your God is strong.

You are weak, but your God is strong….

Then the dream ended. That was the seventh time in a little over a month I have had a dream from the Lord with someone singing “Jesus Loves Me.” Every time I hear it, it becomes more powerful.

Now I know what the Lord is telling me. I must act on it.

God bless.

There’s Like a Trapdoor…



The famous Beavis and Butt-head scene where I got my famous quote, “…there’s like a trapdoor that won’t let me get it.” Screenshot taken from the episode “Beavis and Butt-head vs. The Vending Machine.”

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Before I begin, let me affectionately sing the song of the day, brought to us by the duo Cassius (two French guys named Philippe Zdar and Boombass, respectively).


Nothing, nothing… I’ve seen nothing.

“Nothing,” Cassius. Au Reve (2002).


Now that we are all in a great spirit for the night, let me continue by recapping the events of the day.

  1. I sat around and played MVP Baseball 2005 on my computer.
  2. I sat around and played MVP Baseball 2005 on my computer.
  3. I sat around and played MVP Baseball 2005 on my computer.
  4. My thumbs got tired, so I slept again.
  5. Dad called, and we talked for an hour.
  6. I sat around and played MVP Baseball 2005 on my computer.
  7. I talked to my friend Melissa online, while listening to the afore-mentioned song (on repeat, about 20 times). It’s a good track.
  8. I talked to Stephanie on the phone for about 20 minutes. She’s out with friends again.
  9. Here I am, typing to you.

So as you can see, I am a very busy man. Today wore me out so much that I just had to sit down at my computer and play some MVP Baseball 2005…..oh wait, that’s what I’ve been doing all day anyway. I just hope the Seattle Mariners rock in real life like they did when I was them today. Ehh, crap, we lost tonight.

Tonight I ran to the base exchange for about 15 minutes (it doesn’t count on my list of daily activities because it’s so close) to try to find some memory for my painfully slow computer. I was unsuccessful and came home to a terrible, foul smell that reminded me of burning logs at a campfire, raw eggs, and rotten meat all rolled into one. Then it dawned on me that between my dorm and my neighbor’s, there is a bathroom connecting our two rooms. Let me say no more, except that I walked right back outside and blared music in my car for about 30 minutes until it was safe to re-enter my room without chemical gear on.

Tomorrow I visit my dad in D.C., along with my friend Jonathan. Hate to say this about my brother man, but I have waited way too long to hear him bust out a rap like he proudly proclaims he can. Though I do have a faint belief that it will be better than anything I could ever come up with when he finally does. Jonathan, if you see this, you better reply because I am publicly talking smack and upping the ante…..I want to hear you rap, we need to have a rapping festival sometime.

D.C. tomorrow also means Gay Pride Parade. May the Lord help us all. If anyone hits on me or even looks at me weird, they can expect some action…of a different kind. To set the record straight (no pun intended), I am not homophobic. I just know that being gay is WRONG….but also I do realize you have to separate the person from what they do. Homosexuality is a sin, and it’s clearly outlined in the Bible. But Jesus loved sinners and as a follower of Christ it is my duty to love everyone as well. Capische?

Anyway, I am out. Good fight, good night.

I Finally Realized Something….

…and it took a former Beatle, George Harrison, to knock it into my head through the words of this song. It’s called “Got My Mind Set On You.” Here are the words…

I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you

But it’s gonna take money
A whole lotta spending money
It’s gonne take plenty of money
To do it right child

It’s gonna take time
A whole lot of precious time
It’s gonna take patience and time, ummm
To do it, to do it, to do it, to do it, to do it
To do it right child

And this time I know it’s for real
The feelings that I feel
I know if I put my mind to it
I know that I really can do it

I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you
I got my mind set on you

George Harrison is a genius. That second verse helped me more than anything has over the past couple of days.

Sorry if you all don’t understand, I’m just ranting. Thanks.

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Currently Listening To: “Got My Mind Set On You,” George Harrison. Cloud Nine (1987).

I Am Officially Worn Out….HELP.

Everyone–

I’m melting. So much stuff has gone on in recent weeks, most of it not so great, that I have found it difficult to handle. I can’t go into details or specifics, but I will tell you just a tiny bit so you can get a good idea.

Some of it has to do with church.
Some of it has to do with work.
Some of it has to do with friends.
Some of it has to do with the girl I have my sights set on.
It all sucks, but I’ll pull through.

All of the above has just helped (terrible use of the word help there) me reach a breaking point. Tonight I was just so overcome by the circumstances that a million thoughts ran inside my head and the only thing I could do was go outside and run two miles around our track at 11:20 PM. And yes, I did it without stopping.

And I also took my prescribed adult ADHD medication for the first time in three weeks. This is not cool.

I’ve been really trying hard to put a positive spin on everything lately, because it’s my belief that being positive about bad things helps you get through them a lot easier. But tonight was a bit too much, and I broke down and told the Lord everything.

Don’t know why, but I hurt for some stupid reason and I don’t know what it is. I’m not saying this for people to look and say “Awww, poor Chris”; actually, that’s the last thing I want. I’m just stating fact. Kinda weird for a guy who usually runs around and acts goofy, stupid and dumb all the time to actually admit this, huh?

Let me spill half of what’s going on:

  • I have friends here. That’s cool. But I don’t feel as close to them as I do my friends in Washington, and I expected that. Relationships take time, but I know the Bible says that iron sharpens iron, and I’m pretty dull right now. Part of it is my fault…I haven’t been the best person and I am reaping some of what I have sown. Since most of my friends are from church, please reference below.
  • Work’s getting better actually. Work isn’t the half of my problem.
  • Church is okay, but I don’t get what I need out of it. Again, it’s partly my fault…I know that I need to help step out and be one to help others and be excited about the Lord, and I try. But it’s really tough when I’m going through a rough time and I don’t have anyone that I can really talk to about anyone. I guess I might have rendered myself inaccessible to others in many ways, and people in turn are withdrawing from me. Look, I know I am a loudmouthed butthole sometimes, and I say some stuff that rubs people the wrong way. But that is no reason for anyone to not reach out and help me….and I’m not just talking “I’ll pray for you, man.” I’m tired of hearing that BS, because a lot of people know good and well that when someone says they will pray for them, they forget. Instead I wish someone would take an active role and help me out day by day. There’s no one there to do that.
  • Then there’s Stephanie. I’m confused about the whole deal with her, but I still feel awesome, weird and crazy all at the same time when I think about her. I like her a lot (and I love her to death), but I have this weird feeling that things have really gone south in the past couple of days. She’s made it clear she just wants to be friends at the moment. Smart Chris Brewer knows that he has to be a man and support her no matter what, and be there for her when she needs him. But Dumb Chris Brewer always seems to prevail, thinking that just because of this she doesn’t want to be with him PERIOD, and he’s gonna sit around and mope in a corner and voice his displeasure to everyone. Smart Chris Brewer’s finally gonna jump out of the box soon and KO Dumb Chris Brewer within the next couple of days, so this should be okay.

Pray for me, people. I need it more than ever since I moved away from home in 2002. I’m going through a rough time and haven’t even explained it all. There’s only so much that people need to know.

I could really use some help. I always had this prevailing feeling of “nobody knows my troubles but God”….but now I am openly asking for help. Any takers?

Thanks.